*.sometimes.i.can.think.to.recite.*
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*.my.poetry.*

My poetry is symbolic... Like most poetry... Mostly hard to understand, even though it seems comprehendable...
Poetry is my release.. I'm sorry if you think it sucks, it's not my problem..
I don't mind criticism, just don't be an ass.. Please...



Clear my mind
Of all I'd like to hide
From you
And all you can't see
Because of the light
That blinds your eyes
That light
That comes straight from
Those stars above
The ones you wished on
The same wishes
That got you
Where you are today
Where are you today?
Hide from you
All I see
My predictions
Mean nothing...
Until tomorrow
Not until
It's too late
Not until the stars
Hide behind the clouds
So your wishes
No longer come true
And you are alone
Are you alone?
Hide away from me
With all of your feelings
The ones that
Show you care
Even just a little bit
Because they
Mean too much
And you can't take it
It's the truth
But you can't see it
You won't see it
Until it is gone
Is it gone?
Take from me
All contacts that remain
The ones that
Keep us near
With this distance between us
Because they frighten you
They tell what's real
And the truth hurts
It's hard to face
Because it means
Your reality is wrong
But you won't notice
Until it is over
Is it over?
Yes...
It's gone.



*.once.more.*


I'll read your letters
Once more
And I'll scream
Bright red across
My arm
For every time you said
"I love you...
Forever."
I'll look at your pictures
Once more
And I'll cry
A drop of red blood
For everything
We once were.
I'll listen to our song
Once more
And I'll sing
A final prayer
With the final
Breath
Remembering the
Past.
I'll bleed
Once more
Just for the cause.
Just to
Make you happy.
'Cause that's all we
Need.
Is happiness.
Say goodbye
To me
And
Be happy
Eternally.
 
*.breathless.*

It's funny how
Sometimes we run so fast
To hide from ourselves
But we still can't seem
To get away.
Collapsed on the ground
In our thoughts,
We feel even more
Failure
Than we did
When we began to run.
And we wonder
Which feeling is worse.
Fear or failure?
And it always seems true
That when we feel fear
The one we love feels safe.
And when we fail
The one we love gets ahead.
I'm weak from running.
And I'm crushed from falling....


*aLLiE*


*.mistake.*


Did you know
Sometimes I pick up the phone
To call you,
But I hang up
'Cause I'm too scared?
I shake
Just like the first time.
What will
I say to you?
I can't bear
The silences
We encounter here.
Did you know
I hide you in my pocket
Only to remind me
Every now and then
Of what was once
And to make me cry
Because of what is
No longer?
Did you know
Sometimes I wonder
If it was all a
Mistake?
Did we throw everything away
Without even knowing
What we'd really lose...?
Did you know
There are nights
Where I can't get to sleep
Because the thoughts of you
Overwhelm my head
And I can't get them to stop?
And most of me
Doesn't want them to stop.
Did you know
How much I truly loved you
And how much
I still do?
More than ever before
'Cause now I know
What we had
To lose.
And what we lost.
Did you know
I still wish for you
Every night on my
Lucky star?
Fully equipped with
That priceless piece of metal
From that day
So long ago.
Did you know
That I'm sorry
For missing you
And loving you
As much as I do?
And always will.
'Cause I know
What we really had to lose
And what we lost.
It was all a
Mistake.

*.stars.of.infinity.*


The robot starts to think
I wonder what it dreams
Splintered piece of glass falls in the seat
Reminders of the youth we lost
Time turns through our veins
The twilight world in blue and white
The needle and the damage done
Our last goodbye
A dead letter marked return to sender
This is the lipstick on the collar and in my own life
I've seen it in the mirror sometimes
I'm still here and we are all guilty

And I'm paralyzed

Asleep you set the fire in your own house
Tearing this canvas from the wall
And counting down our days to live...
I'm calling your name hoping for something to was these dreams of you away
Drain the blood from this valentine
You hate me for being this way
Loss of identity
It rains for hours and the phone is off its hook
But you lead with your eyes and you give it away
It's the sound of your racing heart
You're stretching to meet expectations that you will never reach
I'm letting go ove everything I once loved

I'm falling to pieces


***found poem from the album "Full Collapse" by Thursday***

*.unworthy.*
You stare
And you think
You know...
You think you know who I am.
To you,
I am a mess.
...I wish I were beautiful.
You turn your head...
And you say
I'm unworthy
Of a friendship
Such as yours.
You truly believe
That you know...
You believe you know me inside out.
Then who am I?
To you,
I am nothing.
I ambeautiful...
...On the inside.
You laugh
And you act
Like you're better...
You think you're so much more than me.
Your laughter
Makes me beautiful.
But it's an unseen beauty...
That I choose to hide,
And keep away
From your unworthy eyes.

*.einstein.*
Stare blindly
At the pale blue
Relection.
See through
Indirectly
To what's
Inside.
E
Does not always
Equal
MC².
Scream quietly
Into my
Unlistening ear.
Pry deeply
Into my
Unquiet mind.
Tear me
Apart.
Open up my
Healing wounds.
Unleash my
Forgotten pain.
Try to find
The truth
In your
Lies.
Try to hide
The fear
In my
Eyes.
Fly free
With your feet
On the ground.
Cut you open
And expose your
Heart of stone.
Listen deafly
To my
Unintelligible cries.
Give me back
Unrequited love.
Wipe away
Dry tears that
Streak my
Pale red
Face.
Time goes
Backward.
Stars are
Infinity.
Complete my
Broken-puzzle heart.
Prove without
Love
How much you
Care.
E
Does not always
Equal
MC².


*.you're.gone.*
Was it that one
Split second
When I closed my eyes
And missed a
Shooting star?
Was it that one
Summer morning
When I woke up
Just one minute
Too late?
Or maybe it was
That one time
When from my eyes
Fell that one tear
That was saltier
Than the rest.
Or it was
That seasonably cold night
When I went to bed
Feeling more
Empty and alone
Than I did
When I awoke
That same morning.
Was it that
Frozen moment in time
When it seemed as if
Everything I had was
Gone?
That one painful second...
Was it then that
My world
Fell apart?
Can you tell me?
Because I know
It was sometime
Between now and then
But I can't tell you
When.
It had to be
That one time
That I closed my eyes
Too soon
Or I turned my head
To look the other way.
Somewhere back there
I lost my love.
My life.
And I've gone on
Unaware
That I'm
Living this lie.
But when did it happen?
When exaclty was it
That I died?


*.stars.*
Stars shine brightly in silver-blue skies
While we watch with wander eyes
As they fly freely into forever.

Stars shine brightly in silver-blue skies
While I watch your beaming blue eyes
Staring deeply into the darkness of night.

Shooting stars dance dramatically
Across silver-blue skies
As your words sing softly to make me smile.

Sunshine slowly breaks the stars
And the glitter in the sky is gone
But your blue eyes are still beaming
While I wait for you to kiss me
Softly with your smile.



*.lots.more.coming.very.soon.*